The Next Thing On My List

Hey ! I finish my first book already 😀. Now I am reading my second book that is called The Next Thing On My List by Jill Smolinski. It's about Marissa that has a list of thing she has to do before her 25th birthday. I think that something on her list are fun to do. So far I am like the book the first pages were boring but on its getting interesting . I am in page 48

I do not understand why my father would not let me play footballl. I really like play football because it help me forget the problems that I am going though . My coach says that I am a very good player. My mom tells my father that he should let me play football.I think he should understand that I like play football as much as he like playing baseball. I do not like that I can not have a say on what I want to do. It's was not my fault that he was to old to play in a baseball team. He should be happy that I also like play sports as he does. Maybe we do not like playing the same sport but he should be supported about me playing football.I think that your parents  should supported your dreams and not be supported about your dreams.like he not signing the paper for me to play football. 

Today I confronted my father. I told him everything I was hold in for many years. I told him that I was not scared of him . But for many years I did everything with the fear that he would not like what I was doing. I told him that after what he did . Cheat on my mom from that day he did not counts for us anymore. Me and him got into a big fight that he told me to leave the house. I did leave the house . He want me to hit him but I did not I just leave before something happened. Sometimes I felt like he did not love. I felt like that because on the way he tried me.